It has been a while since i have written. I haven't been writing, i guess, since there is nothing good to write about -yet! I've gotten myself a job, which will help for when i lose weight, and will probably need new clothes, which I am totally excited about! Most of the clothes currently in my closet are a little baggy on me, as they are a size bigger than I currently am, just because I want myself to see that I look horrible, so that when I look in the mirror, my willpower will be greater. And besides, I look totally fat in clothes that are my size, or smaller. And, yes, I do have smaller clothes - I have a box of summer clothes that are smaller than I am right now, because I know that if that bow is there, it will push me harder, and give me more willpower. I call it the '110-box' Anyway... I'm starting to doubt my decision to go to college. Ever since I was about 14 years old, Ive always wanted to go to Europe; there's so much history there. But now I'm not sure if i should travel, and then go to college (but if i do, there will be no more money left), or if i sould go to college, and then travel, (in which, there will be no money left, either way). I have currently chosen college, i have applied and everything, but I'm starting to seriously doubt that decision. anyway, hope everyone is getting thinner and thinner for the summer, and hope all is well! lovelovelove ~em