So my sister didn't stay at home last night...and its my fault.
Okay, so first, I accidentally told my father that my mother had taken my sister's phone away because my sister said she was going to be somewhere but was actually out somewhere else with a boy - so my mother took my sisters phone away.
My father got a little mad, since, how else was he supposed to contact my sister if she didn't have her phone?
So last night, my sister and mother got into a arguement about how my sister shuld have her phone incase of arguments. In the end, my mother grabbed the phone, walked up to my sister and said 'Fine, go live with your father.' So my sister wasnt home last night, and it's all my fault.

So tomorrow, we're celebrating my birthday ( ;( ) and my father wants to have a barbeque. WHAT!!!!!!>?????? There is no way in h*ll (escuse my language) that I would EVER want a barbeque for my birthday. They smell, and they revolt me. Tons of ants and mosquitos, and, oh, god the heat! I hate them. I don't like the smell of chicken, or hot dogs, or hamburgers, and I don't even eat meat to begin with. But my father is always pushing the meat on me, AND I DON'T WANT TO EAT IT!!!
I know I shouldn't be so selfish, but when its girl's birthday, she wants the day to be perfect. And my idea of perfect is NOT with a barbeque! AAHHHHH!
I hope it's fine tomorrow. I have never had a good birthday, they've all been BAD and crappy. I've never had a sweet 16, but that's just me. I would rather not americanize - no offense to those who have - my birthday (even though its not my 16th, but 19th), but when I'm 19, I'm legally an adult, and can do whatever I please, even if I want to get out of the country, or just travel across country.

Anyway, hope everyone else is doing better than I am, and I hope summer is treating everyone better (TIP: you burn more calories when you jog in the summer than in the winter)

Lovelovelove
~Em

From bad to worse

You know that expression 'How could it get any worse?'; the one you use when everything seems to be bad, but once you say it, it gets worse. Well, my life now has gone from bad to worse.
My mom has now just told my sister and me that we're moving. She can't afford the house, and shuffling snow, and wood for the wood stove seems like too much for her. I keep asking where we'll go once we're out of the house, but she doesn't know yet. That's what always bugs me. No matter where you live, at least once in someone's life they move; i hate moving, it's like there isn't a place in the world that I can ever truly call home.
So now currently I'm jobless, and now maybe temporaryily homeless.
I know it's weird when I post stuff about how bad my life is, when it's better than some. But I really don't like talking to therapists (thank god i don't anymore)- they give you answers like asking people things, that you would never ask. My mother has made me talk to at least 3, when there never was anything wrong with me inthe first place. And they never seem in understand; all they seem to do is sit there, ask you questions, and then write it down, and you get the feeling like their judging you, when, clearly, they shouldn't. I mean, everyone has secrets. Anyway, not knowing who i'm talking to kind of helps; I get annonymity, and i don't have people constantly judging me.
So by the end of the summer, I'll be living somewhere else, most likely in a rented apartment, where you can't een stick a nail in the wall. It's like I'll be living in a temporary home.
Anyway, hope everyone is good. Hope summer is treating everyone well, and good luck in your endeavors.

Lovelovelove
~Em

July 6, 2010

Hey everyone again!
I haven't been posting for a while, and I'm sorry about that. Everything has been going down hill. Good news is that I have finally figured out what I want to do for the next four years!!!!! College - to study English!
But the bad news?? I haven't been able to find a good job for almost a year now. My parents must be rolling on the floor laughing at all of my life's failures, but still thanking God that my younger sister is perfect (besides that fact that she is dating an psychotic idoit! - but they don't know that yet!)
Anyway, my life is hopefully going to get back on track this summer, and I will try to post as often as I can.
I do truly hope that everyone is great this summer, and I hope those pounds are melting off!!!

-Lovelovelove
~Em

P.S.- If anyone needs more inspiration than these (or other) blog posts, prettythin.com is a website that helps me in my darkest hour!

Good Luck Everyone!!!