Okay, so my father was on my sisters phone, and then he wanted to talk to me, so my sister passed the phone to me, and i talked to him for like 2 minutes, and then after i looked at her text messages; you can never really know what people say about you.
Anyway, so i was looking at what people texted her, and was shocked at what this guy kenny said. He was going on about how i don't know what i want to do with my life, and when i'm going to move out of my parents house. okay, so i see his point, but who the h*Ll does he think he is, going on about someone like that, when he doesn't even know me; i don't even know him!
Okay, so i don't really have any goals in life, except the obvious ones that everyone else has, and i have no clue what i want to do with my life, besides somethine in beauty or fashion (but not desinging); i still...and i'm looking for a job, so that i can ...live? well, i really want a job so i can buy more cosmetics, to be honest. I have always wanted to buy a mac lipstick, and maybe a few other things, so to do that i would need to get a job, which is good for everyone.
Anyway, hope everyone is good!!
Lovelovelove
~em
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Saturday, March 20, 2010
It's been a while
Hey everyone! I'm back!
I know it has been a while since i last posted, and i must say, that i feel better than i ever have when i was writing previous entires.
Okay, so i have been writing EVERYTHING down that i eat, and everyday for the past 4 days, i have been going out and excerising. Mostly just biking half an hour, and jogging for 30 minutes, except that last night my hip started to hurt for some strange unknown reason, and i had to walk the last 8 minutes. I think my hip started to hurt because of a small accident i had a few years ago. About 3-4 years ago, when i was like in grade 9 or something, where I live we have a mountain which is like a ski hill, and pratically everyone who lives here has been 'up on the hill' as least once or twice. So, younger grades in my 8-12 grade high school, lets kids from grade 8-9 go up 3 times between January and February, just for a few fun days. So when i was in grade 9, i fell down a small hill, and i think my hip landed awkardly onto my ski, and so it hurt for a while. It hasn't bothered my, except that my back hurts on and off rarely, but it happens, and when it does, it really hurts, like i can't lie straight on my back.
So last night, i had to cut my jog short because of my hip, and now today it hurts like its bruised or something. I think i'm gonna have to go to the doctor. It's kind of freaking me out, i mean, something doesn't just hurt for no reason, right?
Anyway, so i have been keeping track of what i have been eating, and it really does all add up. So, i count the food i've ate, then the excerise i've done, and then -150 for a normal day. Then i add and subtract, all that stuff, and the number that i get is what i write down on a calendar i made, and then i add all the numbers up from everyday, and see how many calories i've eaten, blah,blah,blah. Okay so within the last 5 days i've had -get ready-....5049 calories.
So that number will flextuate, but my goal is to get it to a negative number, and burn all calories. Let me say, that is ALOT of exercise, but to be honset, i'm kind of looking forward to it.
For 3 years now, i have been SO concerned about my weight, and now i'm actually doing something about it.
Anyway, hope you are all well.
Lovelovelove
~em
I know it has been a while since i last posted, and i must say, that i feel better than i ever have when i was writing previous entires.
Okay, so i have been writing EVERYTHING down that i eat, and everyday for the past 4 days, i have been going out and excerising. Mostly just biking half an hour, and jogging for 30 minutes, except that last night my hip started to hurt for some strange unknown reason, and i had to walk the last 8 minutes. I think my hip started to hurt because of a small accident i had a few years ago. About 3-4 years ago, when i was like in grade 9 or something, where I live we have a mountain which is like a ski hill, and pratically everyone who lives here has been 'up on the hill' as least once or twice. So, younger grades in my 8-12 grade high school, lets kids from grade 8-9 go up 3 times between January and February, just for a few fun days. So when i was in grade 9, i fell down a small hill, and i think my hip landed awkardly onto my ski, and so it hurt for a while. It hasn't bothered my, except that my back hurts on and off rarely, but it happens, and when it does, it really hurts, like i can't lie straight on my back.
So last night, i had to cut my jog short because of my hip, and now today it hurts like its bruised or something. I think i'm gonna have to go to the doctor. It's kind of freaking me out, i mean, something doesn't just hurt for no reason, right?
Anyway, so i have been keeping track of what i have been eating, and it really does all add up. So, i count the food i've ate, then the excerise i've done, and then -150 for a normal day. Then i add and subtract, all that stuff, and the number that i get is what i write down on a calendar i made, and then i add all the numbers up from everyday, and see how many calories i've eaten, blah,blah,blah. Okay so within the last 5 days i've had -get ready-....5049 calories.
So that number will flextuate, but my goal is to get it to a negative number, and burn all calories. Let me say, that is ALOT of exercise, but to be honset, i'm kind of looking forward to it.
For 3 years now, i have been SO concerned about my weight, and now i'm actually doing something about it.
Anyway, hope you are all well.
Lovelovelove
~em
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Not As Planned
Okay, so, last summer, as our next door neighours needed a place to put some extra stuff, as they were moving and had run out of room, there was a treadmill out of some of the stuff.
I tried to turn it on tonight, but it didn't work. It needed a key. DARN!
So now I have to resort back to going jogging out in the open. It's not that i don't like nature, I just don't like it when people stare at me, and in my head I know that their thinking how fat I am. So I usually run at night, so no one will see me clearly.
I hate this.
I hate being fat.
Hope everyone is doing better than me.
Lovelovelove
~Em
I tried to turn it on tonight, but it didn't work. It needed a key. DARN!
So now I have to resort back to going jogging out in the open. It's not that i don't like nature, I just don't like it when people stare at me, and in my head I know that their thinking how fat I am. So I usually run at night, so no one will see me clearly.
I hate this.
I hate being fat.
Hope everyone is doing better than me.
Lovelovelove
~Em
Sunday, March 7, 2010
thanks
okay, i forgot someting on the last post.
So, i can look back at some of my later posts, and see what i wrote, and what people comment on them.
Thanks Charlie for the comment. It REALLY made my day.
Thanks:)
So, i can look back at some of my later posts, and see what i wrote, and what people comment on them.
Thanks Charlie for the comment. It REALLY made my day.
Thanks:)
March 7, 2010
I don't really know what to write.
I keep thinking about how things should be, but then think about how much i regret everything over the years.
I keep thinking about how things should be, but then think about how much i regret everything over the years.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
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